sacrifice ke?

I wish I could be irresponsible and selfish. No, I'm not saying that I am always the good one. I'm just almost always the most dedicated - which does not in any way confirm that I'm always right or the best. There's no need for me to tell you everything here but suffice to say that I had just wayyy too many things to do last week and the first half of this week (re:yesterday and today). And to cut a long story short, I did it all alone when I could have had some help. Somehow in the midst of completing all the tasks, I didn't have time to ponder about why I'm left alone, or where's everybody else when they're needed and all that crap. Maybe I'm too performance-oriented. In fact, most of the time I'd rather be the only one doing it rather than having five pairs of hands having a go at it. Rimas je. So I was just plain busy doing everything single-handedly without a fraction of a thought about the missing persons - until today. Like I've said whenever I'm asked to do something, I'd do it wholeheartedly and see it through 'til the end. No way am I going to leave anything half way done. My issue today is that I'm having fever and a wicked sore throat. Every gulp of water is painful. I could have, should have, would have called in sick today. I deserve it because I'm genuinely sick. The doctor would have easily given me MC for two days at the rate I'm going. But I can't do that. It's annoying. I'm annoying. But I really can't just leave everything I've worked so hard for. I don't want the end result to be mediocre just because I'm not there and people will start blaming me for leaving it all unattended when in actual fact I was left alone the whole time! So yes, being a responsible person, here I am. *yawn* What else is new?? And the cycle continues. Hmm, I wonder how it feels to not FEEL anything about leaving all your work to somebody else, not feeling the anxiety or pressure to perform, not bothering about what you're supposed to be bothered about...Hmm. Whatevs, I'm on leave tomorrow after I've cancelled today's leave so hopefully I'll get the much needed rest tomorrow. Yeshh I had to miss his convocation for this! But it's okay, I believe in karma. And God is fair, macam biasa. He's my witness. Hehe. So Mr.Convo, congratulations baby, I'm proud of you (and I'm also proud of myself for being the greatest tutor in your life!Haha). We'll make a day out of tomorrow!And everyone, please do not disturb.