I went private and now I’m back in public eyes, all yours to judge. (I do like to make myself sound like a celebrity. Trust me it’s just the way I write.) I had a sudden change of heart. It all started when I realized that I haven’t been blogging that much anymore and then I got bored with my previous layout and one thing led to another and here I am. And all the things I’ve written in recent months revolved around my pregnancy. As much as I embrace my pregnancy, it’s getting pretty mundane (talking or writing about it). So I needed a new start, a fresh start. That’s just how I work. I almost deleted this blog, thought of shifting it to a whole new place with new neighbours. But then I thought, let’s see if I can change the colours a little here and there and change my approach to blogging – be more raw, let’s see if I can satiate my thirst for something different. Is this the ‘something different’ that I’m looking for? I’ll just have to wait and see.
There are a lot of things that I don’t share here with you. Work especially. Whereas that is a part of my life that often consumes my thoughts and mind. And it is totally challenging to ignore the fact that I have this thing called a ‘career’ that shapes a lot of my thinking and approach to life. Sometimes I blog like I don’t have a job, like nothing worries or excites me. Someone once said that being humble won’t get you anywhere in life but of course I don’t agree. Humility keeps a person grounded. Many people think that they’ve got it (re:humility) but they don’t.
There are a lot of things that I don’t share here with you. Work especially. Whereas that is a part of my life that often consumes my thoughts and mind. And it is totally challenging to ignore the fact that I have this thing called a ‘career’ that shapes a lot of my thinking and approach to life. Sometimes I blog like I don’t have a job, like nothing worries or excites me. Someone once said that being humble won’t get you anywhere in life but of course I don’t agree. Humility keeps a person grounded. Many people think that they’ve got it (re:humility) but they don’t.
But not writing about work is not so much about being humble. It’s primarily about secrecy, of course, because of the nature of my work and it’s also about being realistic. We all want to appear to be indispensable to our organization and in today’s challenging world, that is not easy to achieve. So I know I am going to cringe reading my own post but because I promised myself not to write another post on pregnancy, this is the one thing that is currently boggling my mind. I’ll just note (re:VVIP alert) whichever portion that gives the slightest hint of me thinking that I am the most important person in the universe (re:organization).
About a month ago, I was informed that I have been selected by none other than (VVIP alert) the boss himself to be part of a dedicated team. The team is to embark on a journey that will hopefully, transform the organization on a huge, huge scale. The project is massive. We will help direct and shape the organization to become what it aspires to be. Due to the magnitude of the project, team members must drop all their existing core work and focus on only this. No more legal eagle for us, at least for a couple of years. And this is where most of the dilemma derives from. No doubt, I am honoured (VVIP alert) and thrilled to be given this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to help decide what is best for the entire office. I know I am going to learn so much about things that are alien to me like strategic management, business plan and all that jazz. And I get to learn how the corporate sector works, how successful organizations run their business such as our Central.Bank…all the exposure that one can only dream of.
On the other hand, I’m not sure if doing something non-legal for a substantial amount of time satisfies me. I know sometimes if you’ve gotta do it, you just gotta do it. But what about my personal satisfaction? What about my emotions? What about my personal targets and goals? This is going to involve a huge change in my career, not because of the different ‘division’ that I’m going to work in, but it’s about doing something you never thought you’d be doing for a living. It’s just like for example, I quit my job to join Maxis Comm or something. Only that this decision to ‘quit’ is not mine. Trust me, it is a huge decision, one that would take some time to ponder upon, only that in my case there’s no time to reflect it’s just go go go from day one. It’s only right that I be fair to myself and allow myself to go through the necessary emotions. Some days I’d be the most motivated, positive, thankful person on earth and other days I’d just be so confused and lost. Hmm, there are definitely plenty of pros and cons to this whole thing and I am just trying to keep an open mind as far as possible. Wish me luck.
ps; as of the last scan, I am expecting a princess. Insya Allah.
About a month ago, I was informed that I have been selected by none other than (VVIP alert) the boss himself to be part of a dedicated team. The team is to embark on a journey that will hopefully, transform the organization on a huge, huge scale. The project is massive. We will help direct and shape the organization to become what it aspires to be. Due to the magnitude of the project, team members must drop all their existing core work and focus on only this. No more legal eagle for us, at least for a couple of years. And this is where most of the dilemma derives from. No doubt, I am honoured (VVIP alert) and thrilled to be given this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to help decide what is best for the entire office. I know I am going to learn so much about things that are alien to me like strategic management, business plan and all that jazz. And I get to learn how the corporate sector works, how successful organizations run their business such as our Central.Bank…all the exposure that one can only dream of.
On the other hand, I’m not sure if doing something non-legal for a substantial amount of time satisfies me. I know sometimes if you’ve gotta do it, you just gotta do it. But what about my personal satisfaction? What about my emotions? What about my personal targets and goals? This is going to involve a huge change in my career, not because of the different ‘division’ that I’m going to work in, but it’s about doing something you never thought you’d be doing for a living. It’s just like for example, I quit my job to join Maxis Comm or something. Only that this decision to ‘quit’ is not mine. Trust me, it is a huge decision, one that would take some time to ponder upon, only that in my case there’s no time to reflect it’s just go go go from day one. It’s only right that I be fair to myself and allow myself to go through the necessary emotions. Some days I’d be the most motivated, positive, thankful person on earth and other days I’d just be so confused and lost. Hmm, there are definitely plenty of pros and cons to this whole thing and I am just trying to keep an open mind as far as possible. Wish me luck.
ps; as of the last scan, I am expecting a princess. Insya Allah.
3 comments:
omg omg omg! i was wronggggggg! ahahahahahaha
omg so betullah tekaan I oh yeahhhhhhh....wohooo...ok dah senang I nak cari baju for your baby!
hehe.. btl btl!! Congratulations!!!
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