Ok, I admit. I have never been THIS annoying my whole life. Ever since I gave birth to my baby, besides the excitement, eyebags and the whole lot of it, all I could think, talk, tweet about is my weight. And it’s so annoying that I annoy myself just by writing this post. Why do I even bother writing about it? I should be running up and down the slope in front of my house than sitting here accumulating fat!
See. That’s just how annoying I’ve become. I cannot say or do anything without associating it with my (kononnya) weight issues. I used to hate, no ,make that despise people who whine and talk about nothing but calories, exercise, diet yada yada. For me, they are sucking the fun out of their own lives. I’ve never once in my 26 years (Alhamdulilah) of living bothered about how much I weigh. But now look who’s talking.
It’s depressing how silly and childish I am right now. You know how people always say it took 9 months to put on, it’s not going to take 9 days to disappear. Hello, 9 months tu nikmat kot. And I know for a fact that it has only been 38 days! But but but but….ok I’m being childish.
Then again, I don’t regret eating that much during pregnancy. Because it contributed to the growth of my baby (somehow?) and I get my little Maya as a gift. If I could I would do it all over again and eat even more. Hehe. So what do I do with this excess baggage? Any takers?
PS: Oh my, I wrote all the above BEFORE the tragedy that struck Japan occurred. And now I hate myself even more for whining about this very very petty issue. The tragedy and its horrifying images memang truly menginsafkan. I could have just deleted the earlier paragraphs but I just need to show you how forgetful, ungrateful and silly we can be sometimes. For the people of Japan, the LAST thing they care about, or make that, they don’t even freaking care about weight right now. People have lost their lives out there and here I am, talking about pancakes..I mean weight. Sheesh.
So with that, I would like to apologize for even contemplating about complaining about my weight. I will embrace all that God has given me and count my blessings instead of calories. I mean, I think it’s definitely fine to want to be healthy and fit but to whine about non-existent weight issues is just a blatant act of ungratefulness..(ye ke non-existent?hehe) and it pushes people away because nobody wants to be friends with a shallow person. And most importantly, I must remember that I don’t need to live my life to be dictated by what you think is beautiful.
Ok I just ordered nasi kandar pelita from my husband. Really, I’m all done with being too concerned about post-pregnancy body issues. I’ll try to keep fit but what will be, will be yer. Positive-thinking mode starts now!
PSS: My heart and thoughts go out to the people of Japan… :(
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