I used to be Mr.Traffic Jam's best friend. I'd see him day and night. Just name it, we have been through it all together - rainy days, stormy days, bumper to bumper crawl, side mirror to side mirror crawl, you kiss my ass I kiss your ass crawl - through thick and thin, you could put it that way. I've sacrified a lot for him - my sleep, my appetite, an hour or two off my dates. And even when nature called, I put him first. We were inseparable.
But ever since I started working in Putrajaya, I hardly see him anymore. Occasionally we'd meet up for small chats but we haven't had our longggg and winding heart to heart conversation for a long time now. I know, as a best friend, I should be sad that we're drifting apart. But surprisingly, I don't feel sad at all. In fact, I feel downright relieved. Because to tell you the truth, he was getting a little too clingy. He wanted to be with me all the time and wherever I went, he was my constant companion. Maybe I'm a bad friend. Yes, I am so mean. I relish my extra hour of sleep and I feel so calm now that I don't have to worry or think about him constantly.
However, he gave me a surprise visit yesterday on my way home from KL. Ok, I admit that the timing was perfect. After all, it was practically a time slot dedicated just for him and I should have anticipated that he would be there. I mean, where else would he be at that hour of the day? I feel guilty now because I didn't greet him well. I wasn't all warm and friendly...not that I was ever the warm and friendly kind of friend before. But I swear, I didn't even look at his face, I was too busy cursing under my breath. He was still the same. Jovial and happy - too happy in fact to see me. He must have missed me terribly...but I just couldn't feel the same way even if I tried. You know how sometimes in life, there are just some 'friends' you wish you never had? He is one of them.
I ended up spending almost an hour with him yesterday. He hurt my left hand because I can't lift my left hand now. He brings nothing but trouble. I know I can't avoid him forever but one of these days, I'm really going to tell him off and end our friendship for good. I hope he'll be able to take it. And I hope he'll make some new friends soon.
ps: Confirm, I am crazy.
2 comments:
sape x kenal dia..he's been in all our lives for so long that imagining a future without him is simply unthinkable...could that day really come? hehe
ps: rajin la pulak i melayan u nye entry ni. dont call me clingy, i swear i'm not. seriously, i'm not..hehe
he's still my best friend though, and i've never been his friend even, before this.
i'm in the process of emancipating myself. KL-P's the way.
p.s: friends mmg ramai kat tgh2 kl pls and thank you.
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