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I’m not going to recap what has happened during my absence. Because I’m not the recap-ing kind and if I missed it, I missed it. But I bet you can guess what I’ve been up to for the last couple of months or so. YES, it’s all Maya Maya Maya.

Each day all I think about is her. If I’m in the office, I’d be thinking about what she’s doing at home and how I can’t wait to go back and play with her and hope that she wouldn’t be asleep yet. If I’m at home, well, I’d be playing with her or feeding her or putting her to sleep. If it’s a weekday I’ll be thinking about the weekend and all the activities we have lined up for her. And any time in between I’ll be thinking about the things I need to buy for her (as I’m typing this I’m already thinking about getting a new bath tub, bumbo chair etc…), her health and check ups, her clothes…EVERYTHING lah. It’s one after another, there’s never nothing to buy or nothing to think of.

I’m not complaining. I LOVE motherhood. But I’m just indicating that it’s very time and mind consuming. Of course let’s not even venture on the topic of finances. So the last thing that I feel like doing when I have some free time at hand is blogging.

Maya is five months and 3 weeks. She’s going to be half a year next week!! I’m so excited. No, I’m not going to throw her a half-year birthday party (I heard that it’s the trend now?). I’m just going to throw myself all over her until she gets rimas and scream. Hehe.

Ok so here’s the part where I gush about my daughter. Sorry, it’s just a mom’s thing. All of my mummy friends are crazy-obsessed-to-the-point-of-insanity with their kids. Regardless of whether it’s their first, second or third! The fascination never ends. So since Maya is my first, I am more than allowed to blog about her and only her.

I love watching her developments. From one (not so) tiny little helpless baby to this little person who knows what she wants. If she’s holding something that she likes and you try to take it away from her, she’ll hold it tight with both hands and resist your attempt. And if you win, you lose anyway because she’ll cryyyy. The problem is, the things that she wants are all NON-TOYS - her shoes, my handphone, the remote…things like that. So there has been a lot of mengada-ngada crying going on lately. A ‘mengada-ngada’ cry is the type where there are no tears, just an overly exaggerated facial expression. Another thing is that she knows which one is her Milky Milky so if she sees the bottle and she’s hungry, then you better put it in her mouth quickly or else, the drama begins. When Maya was smaller (1 to 4 months), she was definitely an easy baby to take care of. She’s the type who wouldn’t cry for no reason (some babies kan merengek and meragam). It was so easy to feed her, bathe her, put her to sleep. Tak payah dodoi pun she can just sleep on the bed on her own. Actually, she still IS a good baby,it’s still easy to feed, bathe her and put her to sleep but it’s just that she’s a whole lot smarter now so you can’t really mess up with her. Hehe.

Play time is becoming more and more of a two-way communication…She knows how to tease you…like if you pretend that you are ticklish when she touches your nose, she’d do it again and again and laugh. Her favourite cartoon is the all time classic Sesame Street. What else? Her baju raya has filled up half of her wardrobe. I keep telling myself not to buy anymore clothes for her but who am I kidding? Everytime I go out, more often than not, I’d get her something. I HAVE to buy her something, no matter how small.

So that’s basically what my life is all about right now. If you’re wondering how it feels like to be married and have a kid, well, isn’t reading this post enough to tell you or at least indicate to you how your life would change once you have a kid? Being married is one thing. Having a baby is another thing all together. It’s not the same. So if you think that you can handle being married, don’t assume that you can handle being a mom as well. Two. Separate. Things. Let’s just say, after almost 6 months, I am also still adjusting. There will be occasions of frustration, anger, disappointment…and of course, there will also be those rainbow-coloured, lollipop-filled days.

But one thing you’ll never feel, and this I can assure you, is regret.