zombie

In the first few weeks following her birth, Maya’s feeding time at night was every two hours and a half. I didn’t have any complaints because I was on leave. And also perhaps I was just too excited to be a mom that I didn’t feel sleepy even during the day! Sometimes I napped but most of the time I didn’t nap at all! I was pushing my body to its limit, I guess.

When she was 3 months, she started waking up for milk every three hours. And by the time I had to go back to work, Maya’s feeding pattern was once at midnight, followed by a long sleep…and she would wake up again around 5.30am for her next feeding. I must say I felt pretty lucky. Perfect timing, girl!

But that was before she found out how to roll over. At first, she was still “malu-malu kucing” to roll over. It means that although she knew how to roll over, she didn’t just roll over anytime anywhere. Perhaps because it was something new to her so she had to get used to it first. At 4 months plus until now, she would actively toss and turn in her sleep. So whenever she gets herself in an uncomfortable position, she will wake us up with her cries. Now, we have no chance of not being interrupted at all in our sleep. At least once, every night, she would cry and we have to make sure that she gets into a better position. Sometimes it takes just 5 minutes. But sometimes, like last night, it took me from 3am to 6am just to put her back to sleep! If she’s sleepy and groggy, fine - she will cry and then fall back to sleep. If she is awaken by her own cries, is feeling perky and all ready to play, then be prepared to be a zombie the next day.

Like how I am today. By the time Her Royal Highness decided that she was bored and ready to sleep again, her maid-in-waiting (ie; Mummy) had to get up and get ready for work. Perfect timing! However, despite all the drama, I still left the house with a heavy heart when I saw her sleeping soundly, still kesian that she will be left with the maid, still felt like the worst mom in the world for not being around her 24/7. Nevertheless I must be thankful and feel lucky because I am not living on my own and I live with my parents and siblings. So at least, during the day she has her two cousins to play with, her grandparents, her aunty and uncles. I can’t imagine leaving her alone with just the maid. Or at a nursery. Thus, I must count my blessings. I am providing Maya with the best environment that I can provide so far. This is the best that Mummy can do sweetie!

Anyway, babies and their unpredictable sleeping patterns…it’s never ending! I hope she will get a hang of it (rolling over) soon…so that she wouldn’t be so surprised when she opens her eyes and realize that she’s already on her tummy. Although I must say that it can be very cute sometimes. It’s just that I will only appreciate the cuteness the next day – after the cooling off period. Haha. But you know I love you baby!!! :)