just one month short of something special

I have always been THE domestic goddess. Ok, so maybe I don’t sweep the floor or iron clothes but deep, deep down inside I have always had this domestic instinct. Can I just cut the story short and admit that yes, my ultimate dream is to get married and settle down and have my own little happy family? There you go. I know it’s probably what most girls dream for anyway but I also know some girls who wouldn’t mind not settling down. I’ve never been the super ambitious kind. I don’t want to be a millionaire by the age of 30. (Ok lah, I would love to be one but if it’s not meant to be for me, then it’s ok) When others strive to be the best litigator in town, here I am thinking and writing about this. Haha. I guess I’m the perfect candidate for all typical Malay guys, who doesn’t want a career-driven wife. You want me to be a housewife? In a blink, honey. Provided t hat of course, you earn enough to give a comfortable life to the family. It’s not that I don’t have goals (career-wise). It’s just that some things would supersede those goals without a doubt. Everyone has his or her own priority so I think this is mine. Family first, and then I’ll think of ways to improve my career. So everybody knows that I want to be a full-time housewife but I know with the current economic climate, it is way to impossible to have only one spouse working. I guess it’s okay if I don’t get to be a housewife, I can modify my dream a little..Hehe. The idea and concept of marriage has never bugged me or freaked me out. I’m all set for a life-long commitment.

So it shouldn’t be a surprise that I am getting engaged soon. A month from today, actually. Insya Allah. I have been keeping it to myself for what felt like the longest time ever. Those closest to me have been well-informed, so perhaps most of you pun dah tau. After all, it’s not much of a ‘secret’ anymore, the way good news spread. It’s only an engagement but already there are just so many things to do. Now that the time is getting near, I’m already feeling super nervous. Hello, it’s just an engagement, not the real deal yet! So over kan? I guess for me, it is a big deal because it is another HUGE step forward in our relationship. And you only get to be engaged once. So it’s up to me to do whatever I want to do. :) Anyway, I won’t be able to invite everyone for my engagement because as per engagement goes, it is a simple affair with only close friends and family around. (But one’s definition of simple is subjective lah ok?). Therefore, I would like to apologize beforehand.

If all goes well, I would like to invite everyone I know and love to my wedding. We have a date in mind but I will let you know when everything’s confirmed ok? I want everyone to save their dates but I’m not telling you the dates yet…how like that?? Hehe. Alaa, you know already whatttt. Short of me announcing it officially je right? So please, come and grace our function. After all, this is ample notice! It's compulsory, mandatory, shall, must.

I’ll start preparing for THE big day after this. I have about 5 months left, after the engagement. I don’t know if I’ll actually share my journey here, in this blog. I know how some people feel about it but I swear if I were to do it, it’s only because my friends would love to read it. And I have friends who actually love me for who I am and they wouldn’t judge me. It’s just so hard not being able to share my excitement and happiness with everyone. But if I were to think about what people will say about me behind my back, well, people have been talking anyway so what the heck. Let them talk even more! Hehe. Yes, I’m comfortable with that thought. So I might just share. I want everyone to be happy with and for me. Can you do that? Without taking everything I do too seriously? Everyone has his or her opinion and ways of doing things and I’ve always respected other people’s wishes, opinion and perspective. So, let me be. I'll see how it goes.

This is my journey. Let no one tell me otherwise. :)