please think twice!

I am not a reckless person. I have always been responsible, mature. If you think I’m complimenting myself, well, think again. It’s not always a good thing to be too old for your age. When others are making mistakes and stupid major decisions, I sit in my own ‘responsible’ bubble. Untouched. To others, it’s just a phase that people our age are going through (re:darah muda) but for me, that’s a phase I don’t have to go through if I’m wise enough. So maybe I’m afraid to take risks. Maybe I should lighten up. And accept the fact that it’s okay to live life a little precariously. But until then, I am not able to sit quietly and watch things unfold before my eyes. I feel like it’s my responsibility to stop others from being irresponsible too. Because I’m so confident that I know the outcome. I know what’s going to happen. Or is it ok to let a person learn from experience? No matter how bad, no matter how avoidable? Haih, you see, I have the world’s burden on my shoulders. Short of blaming the economic crisis on me, I blame myself for not doing everything I could on almost everything else. Especially, of course, if it involves my loved ones. Not my older loved ones but the 'younger' loved ones. I know that whatever pain, whatever suffering or misfortune that they will face, will affect me somehow. So maybe it’s not just about me thinking for them, but it’s also me, thinking for myself. I end up not really being a selfless person but a person who’s actually just worried about how things will affect her life right? This is not good.

ps: no wonder my ‘real age’ is 30 according to the quiz in FB. LOL. ;p At the rate I'm going, I should be 50 tau!